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| To you To you, today i received both happy and sad news which is I really wanted to tell you so much, i want those spirit words from you. Its been 25 days we re not talking but today i miss you so much. I miss you so much i miss your words your voice i miss you more than you ever know. How i wish if youre still with me. I am so devastated because i cannot tell you anything anymore. Because i promised to not disturb you with anyone you want. I am sorry because i will be always like this. But now im pretending to be strong to move on from you. Thank you because you left me and made me stronger. I know i am not your priority anymore and im sorry because i cant forgive you on what you made me become. I hate you so much. But i just miss you i just miss you more than anyone ever did. I am weak and i hope youre happy with that. Assalammualaikum 
smart isn't he? so this is Mohd Ikhmal Haqeem b. Mohd Zamri, a freak 19teen years old and very lembab. HAHAHAHA well dalam blog jelah i can give you compliments. He is very tall and i kinda scared of tall people before but not more when i met him and know him till now. He is the love of my life and alhamdulillah he never go leaving me behind. I love him endlessly as a person, as a friend that i can tell anything, a lover that i can cuddle with, a bro that can take care of me when ever in the hardship, an everything person that loves me for who i am.
Tomorrow is his birthday yay finally youre getting older while your face already show your oldness, old man. HEHEHE so this is the precious appreciation post that i wanna make to you. Allah selamatkan kamu Ikhmal Haqeem. Semoga panjang umur murah rezeki dan diberkati Allah swt. All the best in your life and i really hope you can be happy 24/7 with me or without ;) let u know that i miss you right now. really missing you take care sayang. its so hard to let go of you tadi and i wanna tell u i wont doubt anything more bcs i know you really love me and me too. thanks for staying till now. Take care at Kedah and do not miss me bcs im already am! :( semoga hari hari awak dipenuhi dengan kasih sayang dan selalu tersenyum bila terasa bahagia. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA wtf is that. you know what i ve always create a poem for you during semester 1 but forgot to jot down. it went away when i didnt see you anymore. haha so funny puteri, your biggest secret dah terkeluar. so here is a poem for you;
when your face resembles in my head,
all i see is peaceful view
yet a view that i don't want to get rid of,
a view that remains forever
in the heart of mine.
tajuk???? hahahahah okay your face kot lol okay bye im blushing blushing blushinggggg
everyone didnt care at alll i'm sorry. its been a year and a half. everything is changed. i met him, the only person that i can give my all. thankful to have him besides whenever in the hardship. but i was so stupid to let it started. i love him too much but it starts ruining my thoughts. it was wonderful from the moment i know him. to me, he is indeed my everything and only. he never fails to cherish me up and make everything possible for me. but i knew if i let him come to my own world, he will suffer. he will notice all the lacks in my life. im totally a sad person. an introvert person inside. i feel empty right now but i know he will be there. thank you ikhmal. inside down deep in my heart i just want to say sorry to my mom, bcs i break her trust. she didnt want me to know any guys but i did. freedom is great but the consequences is heartbreaking. i gave up with trust. i just cannot be trusted anymore. im sorry mom. im sorry. sorry for not being one of your good daughter. i love u so much and missing mak abah is really hardest to deal entire my life. i really wanna meet u so bad. im sorry. im sorry . a post during SPM i'm writing this bcs i really need to express my words here .jpg)
today is sunday 12.48 am while i am writing this. life supposed to be hard and yep it happens to me now. started from the early of 2014 until now.. November of 2014 i can tell that too many things happened and yes it depressing me until now. all of my problems included as well family friends and also my academics. some people would prefer to write their problems thru twitter or facebok. but for me, this blog is the only thing i can hang on. i do not want to tell my problems yet i want to tell how i feel right now. after all those heartbreaking incident happened i felt so so give up with my own life. but do not worry because i still have ALLAH SWT to be with. Allah swt is the greatest.
actually i do feel sad about how they treat me all this while. i am the youngest but i do not feel like they pampered me so much. i live in y-generations where everything is starts with one click in internet. when they know something bad happened to me they will be mad instead of discuss the problems. i never being regret yet i am so sad. but to be honest i am still looking the a best friend that i can count with. to the rest,they are the best and i wont complain much. they re my sweethearts. i do missing something.
PASSIONATE
yep. thats it. i think the last time when im too immersed in something when i were in standard 6. i am not talking bout fandom or hobbies. im talking bout so many random things. and i can tell you its choices of our own life. i really missed when the time i felt so happy and do not think 2 or 3 tons of probs when i feel happy. just like now, i am not denying that the face of my happiness is kind of fake that people want to see. i was honest in all of my friendships bcs i never complaint but its me, i do not find my eternity of happiness in myself even i am being alone. nah i am so confused tho with my own words. and thats all for todayyyy! byeeeee
- assalammualaikum. hello everyone. as usual people always update their blogs when they has a lotsa prob. then me too :() 2013 was okay but this year is hard to go thru. a lotsa of things happen and the one who dnt really know bout my probs dnt just make any easy speculations as ur mouth like to. for me i dnt even care what you gonna think but pls respect my pride and myself. do u think that i want this bullshits happened while i have spm to go with. tbh honest i love all my friends too much. but is it me to blame when they re not in one head anymore? they think im fine with this situation but pls think that ur words and ur fcking lines just hurts me and i dont want to hear again. since i was 12 and now im 17 this bullshits still happen to me. well thanks dugaaan but dnt keep giving me bullshits. theres so many to talk about, but tak baik bukak aib orang so bye. live ur life ppl. love u if u love me so hi . hm assalammualaikum . it s been a long time since im not update my bloggie. so here i am. hows life? hm good but too bad isn it ? yup too bad. i need to focus on my study but i just can't :( ive tried tho but its sucks. haih however i must to study for my own good right ? this year 2013 i ve met my new friends like fatin, baby mai, humairah and more. they are so pleasant and cute. fatin and bby mai are my classmates. nuzulul,sya,anis also are my classmates since 2011 except anis. muehehehh . yene,dayah and meeza in other different class. btw how s my language? teruk kan! tahap budak belajar english waktu darjah one. hahaha hey dont look down down on me.sayer malas jer tunjuk cleverr. hahaha ok got to go. lots of love :) |
